feelings, wohohwoh, feelings

I didn't mean to sound pathetic in my last post. I've just been keeping certain thoughts to myself lately, and needed to air them. That's not quite true, though. I haven been able to let 'certain people' know how I feel, and although I still haven't voiced my feelings to them, my last post helped me feel a bit better. For now, anyway, since I don't want to start a family feud. Not really.

I really don't know why we can't just accept one another, and go on with life.

(change of subject, I'm tired of family crap)

Lately I've been thinking about knitting more than actually knitting. I hate that. I mean, I'm not above skipping out on chores so I can play with yarn. But lately I just sit on the couch, wrapped up in my snuggly blankie, not knitting. At least my knitting is nearby...does that count for anything?
I didn't really think so.

Now I'm off to watch some Star Trek (the Next Generation) with my beloved. I got a new felted project pattern this weekend, a snowman, so maybe I'll get started on that. I'd like to make one or two for MIL, she loves snowpeople too! I gave her two of the pumpkins I made for Thanksgiving, she seemed to like them a lot.
Wish me luck!

a few small thanks...

* MIL & FIL, for all they've done in the last six months since my husband's surgery. Yes, I could mow my own lawn (or hire someone to do it) but the fact that I haven't even had to think about it has been great. This is just one of the many things they have done for us, that has helped to relieve my/our stress.

* MIL & FIL (again) for spending time with my beloved in addition to any of the help I referred to above. Just hanging out, watching a movie, or getting ice cream. This has been a huge stress reliever for me, knowing that beloved wasn't just laying by himself all day, while his brain leaked out onto his pillow.

* Dana, Carol & Lizz, my dear friends. Each of them, in their own way, helped me stay sane. (at least as sane as I have ever been)

* My parents, my Mom for coming to stay with us after surgery and both my Mom and Dad for never failing to ask how Kevin is doing when we talk on the phone. He and I can both feel their love and care across the miles.

* My beloved, for simply being himself. I could certainly live without him, but absolutely do not want to. Even when he thinks that I am the one taking care of him, he is really taking care of me.

I'm so thankful for all that I have, and even for some things I don't have. Other than my beloved being in constant pain, I wouldn't change a thing.

I hope I can always find the good in my life, and hope also that I can always find more good than bad.

Happy Thanksgiving